Another Layer of Understanding

ElizabethPW, someone I know “only” from social networking sent me on a journey today and it feels good because somehow it gave me a chance to see myself as okay and not necessarily as freaky as I sometimes think I am.  People (even those who you’d think know me)  for years have been INSISTING that I am an extrovert.  

I’m outgoing enough, seem to know a lot of people and generally can go along to get along for a decent amount of time — like if I’m stuck at sea on a cruise ship, at a networking event or a conference or convention. However, I prefer the small, intimate gatherings and discussions that take place outside of the big meeting halls and I’d rather sit during the break with a journal in a sliver of sun than with a group eating their yogurt.

This is part of my lesson – learning to trust and be transparent and more fully present.  When I get out of my own way and trust and participate fully, it’s a gift because it let’s me be fully myself — not hiding and closing off. 

My natural inclination, especially when I’m tired or fearful, and stuck in a social situation is to use sleight of hand.  My sleight of hand comes two ways.  Sometimes its the way I’m funny, acerbic and witty, drawing laughs and hellos from the room.  It’s introducing you to everyone around me and ensuring that you have a topic to talk about so that I can slip out the back door for a quick breath of fresh air.  

The second version is when I play the role of investigative journalist.  In this role I spend a great deal of time asking you questions and creating more questions based on the answers you give.  As other folks join us, I include them in the conversation and share the most interesting tidbits I’ve learned from you with the new person.  The two of you find many points of common interest and I can head outside for a breath of fresh air.

In both scenarios, everyone who meets me tells me how outgoing and extroverted I am — and what a great speaker I am.

Cool.

What I find most interesting in terms of this behavior is how it made sense in my hand analysis.  I saw it as a way I was using my gifts – of communication, mentoring and intuition – to hide out from my fear of being ’seen.’  Of course then I’d sometimes wonder why I felt so misunderstood, but that’s another story.

Like Elizabeth, I think there are many tools to get to our juicy tootsy-roll center (our inner goodness/purpose) but I do love assessment tests and knowing that my INFJ-ness is okay, even if it’s often misunderstood because we’re scarce.

Wisdom – The Path of Knowledge

Your fingerprints hold the keys to your life purpose and your life school.

Your life school is like your university major. It’s something you’ve selected (in this case before you were born) to really master during your time here. You’ll go through life learning how to master the school you’re in. Learning is a big part of our time on earth. After all, if we simply arrived here on the planet knowing everything there was to know, what would be the point?

Some people love learning. In fact some people love learning so much they might be tempted to keep learning and learning and taking classes and going to seminars and buying books and workbooks and hiring coaches and mentors over and over again. Learning is great. Gaining knowledge, especially practical knowledge, is excellent.

However, knowledge for knowledge’s sake doesn’t get things done. It’s what you do with the knowledge that makes the difference.

The key to mastering the school of Wisdom is balance between learning and application. If you’re in the school of Wisdom you are definitely a smart cookie. But you stay awake at night worrying that you don’t have all the pieces to the cosmic puzzle you’re working on. When you’re tossing and turning it’s likely because you’re afraid you might have missed something in your research for launching your blog and therefore you’ll decide to wait to get started until you have everything you need to know.

What really gets you is when you see some other person launching the blog that YOU were meant to  write.  Sure, the little voice inside that tells you there isn’t any real competition is right, but still, it bugs you that someone else is already doing what you’ve researched and planned for so very long.

Finding your balance between the pursuit of knowledge and putting it out there is part of your journey.  The cool thing?  All that knowledge you’ve gained, and the exact way you’ve interpreted and applied it is completely one-of-a-kind and will be a delight and gift for those that are looking for the answers and information that only you can supply.

Want to know which school you’re in and how it affects your life purpose?  You can find out with a personal reading based on your hand prints (no matter where you live!)