“Hope is the feeling we have that the feeling we have is not permanent.”– Mignon McLaughlin

That’s the quote that arrived in my e-mail box from the folks at Walk theTalk. It seems very fitting to me.

Yesterday was a hard day. I was frustrated with myself for getting into the doldrums and I even shared my frustrations with my partner. He’s an amazing guy who loves me unconditionally. However, he really doesn’t understand prosperity consciousness. He wants to, but he doesn’t. While we walked the dogs in the high humidity, I vented to him about how frustrated I was. That I couldn’t figure out what I was doing wrong and how annoying it was that I knew that the simple venting was actually setting me back. A wise man, he nodded and concentrated on the dog in his care.

Once we returned home we set about making a meal and I started brainstorming and sharing all the various projects I have in the works. A great many are joint projects and events. I’m really excited and honored about working with these amazing coaches and teachers. I paused and looked up and Michael said,

“This all sounds good, but all these ideas are about sharing a percentage with someone else. When are you going to get 100%?”

“Don’t you see that you’re thinking in a competitive mindset?” I asked. “There really is more than enough for everyone and then some.”

“But you just told me how frustrated you were that you didn’t have enough.” he replied.

“That’s my flaw, not the system’s.” I answered.

While I tried a few more ways to show that every connection, every joint project and every product is really a collaboration and that everyone deserves to make more, I could see I’d lost him.

The thing is, I used to really think that way too. Now, I really do want to ensure everyone figures out how to get past lack mentality and into prosperity. I’m actually befuddled as to why it’s plaguing me now.

I’ve read the fine print for the conference, and it appears that I won’t lose my $3,000 investment. I can apply it to future programs or products. So while it’s the right program, it’s clearly not the time the Universe has set aside for me. Maybe, because I’m an Innovator, the Universe is working me over to get me to learn another way. A way that I can there share with the other Innovators out there. (One thing about Innovator Life Purpose — we always feel that the “system” or the “program” or what have you isn’t quite a fit for us. We’re always tweaking and trying to fit into a program or throw the program over the railing in the first place.)

I’m going to see what the next exciting opportunity is that crops up because I’m in town next week. It’s going to be pretty amazing, I just know it.